Friday February 25 - Day 55

There may or may not be a rant at the end of this...

Both my workout partner and I thought this workout was ugly!

5 stair runs
25 burpees
25 db squat clean & jerk
25 knee ups
25 Russian twists
50 sit ups
5 stair runs

Okay...first, let me be accountable here and say that I've been smoking again this week.  I know, I know.  No lectures and no beating me up.  I've done both enough for all of us.  However, I am happy to say my new quit date is tomorrow and I'm going back on the patch as well.  I could list all the reasons I started and picked em up again, and they are really valid, non-petty reason...but they are still just excuses. 

I did the stairs.  Proudly and without having to use my inhaler, I did the stairs.

When he first sent us this, I texted and asked about the squat clean and jerks cause they didn't sound familiar to me.  He told me to ask the P1 guys.  Okay, so I ask and they say they will show us.  However, when it was time for us to do that particular exercise, they were out on a run - so we went on with the rest of this workout.

When we finished the rest of it, they showed up to show us the clean and jerks.  In the middle of the other parts of the workout, the numb wore off on my mouth (had some dental work done earlier in the day) and my mouth was on fire.  I just wanted to curl up in a corner and cry.

I tried the db squat clean and jerk and I think I did about 8 of them before giving up.  First of all, my mouth was making me want to cry and second, they were really stupid and awkward.  I'll keep trying though.

Once we did that, one of the guys started fussing at us for not timing our workouts.  Apparently, Crossfit is big in timing your workout so you can see how you "progress."  I don't get the timing thing.  I hate it and have refused to time myself.  Although, when the trainer has said "as fast as possible" I've done the best I can - but I still don't time myself. 

This person asked me how do I know I've progressed.  Ummm hello?  20 pounds, 2 dress sizes and I feel GREAT.  I know I've progressed, but with that one simple question and that one simple conversation, I've started doubting myself.  Am I failing at this?  Am I NOT progressing?  Am I NOT getting healthy and what not?  So I chewed on the conversation and the way it made me feel and I've made a decision....

I will talk to the trainer when I see him Tuesday and have him explain to me, in a way I understand, WHY I need to time myself.    If he can give me a reason I can wrap my brain around I'll start considering timing myself.  I have come so very far in this journey, I am NOT going to let someone else's opinion on the timing of these workouts to derail my progress.

Now to enjoy my two days of rest...